Hope.

Well, the RE appointment was amazing. Weird and icky at one point, but good.

I was nervous about having a male doctor, but I think I might love him (in a doctor-patient way, of course). He has kind eyes and didn't make me feel stupid or unimportant, which is something that I was afraid of after all our dealings with BoyWonder's urologist (who was kind of a jerk). In fact, he seemed a little surprised that I knew as much as I do about the whole process--charting and OPKs and fertility monitors and even most of the information on Clomid.

In the office, before we did any actual testing, he said he suspected PCOS as well, although it's considered a mild case because I do ovulate, which makes me really lucky (if I remember correctly, he said only 15-20% of women with PCOS have anything close to regular cycles, and I'm in that group).

He also said that my miscarriage was, in a way, a blessing to us. Not that it isn't horrible and sad, but that it confirmed things he can't even really test for, and a lot of things he could test, but they're more invasive, expensive, and (from my point of view) unpleasant. Now we know I can get pregnant. By BoyWonder.

And then I got to have the lovely experience of a transvaginal ultrasound (which will forever be referred to as the Dildo Cam). It was... icky. I don't know. It wouldn't have been horrible were I not still bleeding, but I was. Apparently by the end of this I will have no shame.

He saw where I ovulated from (the right side), and that there was no evidence of a pregnancy (which is what we expected). My uterus is still full of blood, which looked like it kind of concerned him, but he didn't panic and told me what symptoms were worthy of calling their emergency line.

Also, my ovaries are covered in tiny little cysts, thus confirming the diagnosis of PCOS. Is it weird that it was a relief to be diagnosed? I just feel like finally we have an answer.

So here's the plan:
Quantitative HCG blood work until my level is back to zero. Once I'm officially not pregnant, we start Clomid on my next cycle. Timed intercourse and clomid for three cycles. If I'm not pregnant by then, we'll reevaluate. Doctor acted like three months should do it.

So, here's something else awesome. They did my blood work right in their lab, around 2:30 or so. They called me with the results less than two hours later. Keep in mind I had labs done on Monday with my OB/GYN office and they still haven't called me. (So yes, I'm in the market for a new OB/GYN, if you ICT area ladies have any suggestions.)

I feel amazing. I could be pregnant three months from now. This could actually happen. Soon.