Finally.

Today I feel good. Not just okay (which I was thankful for over the last few weeks), but GOOD.

I woke up without the alarm at 6:45 and I didn't feel tired. I made coffee and showered and did dishes. I sprayed the garden with hot pepper spray, wiped down cabinets, swept the floor... And now it's only 10:30, and I still feel good.

This is a refreshing change. I'm thankful.

I mean, I even made the bed. BoyWonder would be so proud of me if he were here... Although honestly none of this would have gotten done if he were.

Of course, some of this is spurred by the fact that my counterpart at work got married last Saturday and she's been off all week. So I've been working the countroom all week long. Not that I don't appreciate it, but I'm beginning how many things she does (so I don't have to), and how much easier it is to have two of us doing it.

So I'm exhausted. I have two days off in a row, though. That's pretty rare. Just knowing that makes me feel good, but to have energy and optimism again is an amazing feeling.

I don't know what happened. I don't know what I did different. Is it the prenatals? This is the first month I've remembered to take them every day. Or maybe it's from getting back on track with my eating. I can't say, and in truth I know it's a fluke. But I'll take it, anyway.

So, I made my first baby-oriented purchase last week. I know it's cart-before-horse, but I couldn't pass it up. Babysteals had three-packs of GroBaby (now GroVia, I think) diapers for around $42. And I jumped on it, because if you try to buy them off a website, they're $30 each... or more.

They're freaking adorable. And now I'm trying to restrain myself from building my diaper stash. I mean, pre-pregnancy baby shopping is a little ridiculous, isn't it? So far, the GroBabys are my only offense. And honestly, if I see any on sale for that cheap again, I'll snag them just because I can't help but succumb to such a great deal. I mean, seriously.

So today I'm cleaning house. My friend D is coming over for lunchtime coffee, so I can get the majority of the basic cleaning done by then. And then I'm going to attempt to start working on this front bedroom. The tomato lights need to go to the shed, and I need to take the Fit to Wal-Mart tonight for plastic totes for yarn and other craft items.

My goal for this 2ww is to work on the house, and work on being my old, happy self. So far, I'm off to a good start. Even though during the times I feel like crap (see my entries from the beginning of TTC until today, really) I hate cleaning, half of the reason I feel so horrible is that something paralyzes me and I can't seem to get anything done. I'll spend a whole day trying to do one damned thing and get so distracted that it never quite gets done. And then I feel crappy about that, too. ugh.

We'll see how today goes. I should dust off the ADHD books and read through them again for motivation. But then I'm reading, and not doing anything, and I desperately need to keep this momentum.

I think I can do it. Time will tell, I suppose.